Please think of me...cos i cease to exist if you don't.

My grandma suffered a mild stroke again two nights ago.

Compared to the previous one, we felt less affected by her condition. Slurring speech, confused look and paralyzed on the left part of her body. It only hit me when i looked at her closely. How she have changed since i last saw her. She no longer look like the image i have of her in my mind. It hurts when i realized that. It became worst when i remember a thought i had during one of her regular sunday visit to my place. I was busy with my things. Selfishly, trying my best to be who i wanna be and do what i wanna do. She was never on my mind unless i see her. And everytime i see her, it seems that she had lost a part of her since the previous meeting. We are all so involved with what we are doing, that we don't even notice when she speaks or moves. Its like we have forgotten her and because of that she cease to exist slowly...like a part of her evaporates when we don't think of her.

I guess i am being stupid here. But i hope i have something to remember her by in the future, so i decided to whip out my cam.


I have always noticed her feet.

Well, she is in better shape now and will be out tomorrow.

Before i end this, just wanna let you know that we had a terrific time watching Tiramisu finally play after a long absence. Their gig is always the best!



It's only the love for performing that give you this kind of glow.

Maiden yearning for love...life is short

I woke up feeling irritated today. It has been like this for the past week or so. I don't know why. Is it because i have been smoking too much or the fact that my body is deterioting? I felt even more irritated after finding out from my mom, few minutes before meeting Edwin, that she had taken the car with "the kids" to my uncle's place. So, i end up running to NP, had a lightning speed lunch and "beam me up, scottie" to the library after a "Kungfu Hustle" smoke. Blood pressure shot up again when we found the video corner packed and had to watch separate shows cos only the individual stations were vacant. Here is the saviour of the day! AKIRA KUROSAWA's "IKIRU". Excellent film! The plot had been done many times and i have seen many version of it, but the storytelling by this film just get to me. I found myself tearing (not crying..ahem..) at the part when the protaganist started singing
"The gondola song" aka "ゴンドランの唄".
This film is highly recommended for those who can't find a motivation in life.

Will you sing along??

WOOOO HOOO!!! Finally, we did it! Localbarkid had a successful gig on Wednesday, 01/06/05. We brought our lyrics board, set it up, got on stage and just had a hell of fun. All thanks to joe, who really psyched himself up before the gig to connect with the crowd. If not for him, i guess i would be damn nervous and screw up my singing. The rest of the band was great also. Cal and Eugene were damn tight while Alexius and Tim wacked their guitars like there's no tomorrow. I saw lots of people singing along and were just having a blast when we belted "So happy", "Mr. Fantesticle" and "Wallflower". Man, this is first time singing on stage and the feeling is freaking amazing! Thanks to all those who attended the gig. I hope you guys had a great time. For those who are not there, this is what you had missed out...

Photo taken by Eugene's friend. Excellent shot! Thanks man!
Smiling faces everywhere...love is all around.

We will be playing again in August! So catch us this time round! More info later.

Caught Serenaide on Monday at Bar None. Fantastic gig! She was wearing a pair of angel wings this time. So adorable!!! Well, Nat, i did it for lunarin; now its your turn.


"What you are is God's gift to you. What you make of yourself is your gift to God." - Carly Fiorina, Currently unemployed.